Chapter 1 : Keep The Faith
PROLOGUE (Also Including Words of Caution)
Hi Everyone,
It's Been such a long time since I have written anything form my side, it feels like I have become stranger to many things. An empty mind is a devil's workshop, they say. So After about 4 months of absolutely nothing to do except appearing in sequels of Job Interviews, watching late night telly +movies, timeless slumbers, hangout/ dine out with mates, reluctant books reading, playing 'Pakistani X-Games' like Dabbu, Karem Board, Ludo, Re-learning of Bike & Car driving lessons to face the frantic Traffic of Karachi, and not to mention my new & favourite hobby i.e. "the instant handing over my CVs to acquainted and unacquainted ones, with the aim "k bus handover zaroor kerni hai chahey koi jhootey moo hi q na maang ley" etc etc.
So being unoccupied to any '9-5 job- oriented activity', my mind too started spinning up stuff I don't think a sane person would want to listen to. And probably that's the exact reason why I felt that GMAIL & my blog would be the perfect avenue for me to test it on harmless souls. Therefore I am sharing these texts with you. Each mail is labelled as "Chapter" with one main heading and of course with No Definite Conclusion or Sane Moral of The Story at the end.
My request to all recipient of this mail, please ignore these heap of texts for your own sake, it neither contains any wisdom in it nor having any precious pearls of knowledge. You have the liberty to treat these series of emails either as Spam or Junk. I wrote these for self pleasure and with no intentions to delight or amuse anyone. ~ ALSO Before I start, let me make a plea to everybody reading this: Even if you have nothing sensible to say regarding these mails, then please Do Not Say and for God sake Mean It. From these series of mails which I will be sending time to time in near future here is the Chapter 1.
Chapter 1
Keep The Faith
I think, most of you'd be wondering how many days have passed since I wrote or mailed any stuff after "22 days so far in Karachi and still counting" ( the mail I wrote right after 22 days after coming back from UK). Well I'm also not quite sure, but think it's been quite a long time. Also, it has been a long time since I am enjoying a label of "Being Jobless & UK Returned" here in Pakistan.
Well Folks, I had plenty of interviews since my arrival here in Pakistan and honestly speaking my faith has been tested throughout this unemployment run, and I'm sure there's more testing to come. Whenever I get an Interview Call, I feel anxious about the interview, but a voice at the back of my mind continues to assure me that "Oh Zeeshan even if this interview isn't successful, You are still firmly in the God's hands and like other Trillions of creatures in this planet You also haven't been abandoned". Therefore there cannot be any 2 nd opinion regarding in this matter that; God is for us, and if He's for us, what more can we ask of Him?
The impatience & irritation that I've felt, accompanied by heavy doses of frustration, aggravation, disappointment, nuisance and helplessness, just goes to show me how dependent I am on God. At this time I remember the beautiful saying of Kashif (a good friend of mine) who once said that "Zeeshan one of the most difficult time in one's life is when he starts to doubt his own abilities & skills because of circumstances he is making every effort but nothing is happening" I can't explain all of those moments when I've felt even having the 2 Best Degrees from best institutions, as though no one in the world would hire me, and as though my immediate future was in vertical descent. Yet, even if it were rapidly spiraling downwards, God would certainly be there, and sometimes I'd miscalculate how far I need to fall to comprehend His (GOD's) dominion & sovereignty over my life.
Well I am not alone and just like me there are thousands of peoples in the world with same questions and similar worries. I'm unemployed. Who am I now? What am I supposed to do now? How will I get a reasonable job? Where I am standing as compare to my friends? I worked so hard for all of this but where is the return? Where is the fruit of my Hardships? Where is God in all of this? Am I alone on this?
One of the most reassuring, comforting and heartening observations (or revelations you can say) I've made throughout this period of unemployment has been this: I am not alone & I am not abandoned. First and foremost, like everyone else God's always with me. Because He has promised to be with me at all times. He never leaves His man. He's omnipresent, ubiquitous and all-pervading. Secondly, as a human, I am not the only single sole in this whole universe that is in a unique position of unemployment. It may feel like it sometimes, and self-pity scrapes the walls of my mind, but truly speaking, I am not alone in all this. There are plenty of other peoples who are more qualified, more experienced more skilled, more talented, more capable and more gifted than me but they are also unemployed. Just like me they also wait for 'Sunday's DAWN Newspapers' to search for jobs in Careers Pages, and just like me, handover their CVs to their acquainted ones with a request to pass it to the concern authorities. Yes this is a reality ……Just go, look around and see very clearly that there are many, many others who are unemployed, on disability, or are unable to work due to any reason.
Well folks From my experiences, I have learned (and still learning) that sometimes the voice that lay blame on you of "Being the only person in the world with an unemployment dilemma" is the same voice that tells you all of the other lies: Zeeshan "You're unemployable," "You haven't accomplished anything in your life," "You have no achievement" "You'll never get a job," "No one would hire a guy like you" "Look at yours friends they are Managers now" And that devilish voice could go on and on and on until you start believing it to be true.
I am writing because may be these inner voices which are coming somewhere from my inside, and which are turning themselves into words right now, could draw out that devilish voice. I realized that There is a definite purpose, a job, a role or some kind of work, that God wants us to do. And He's got it there for us but at one specific time. The Job, The role, The post, The designation, The occupation or The work may not be glamorous, may not be high profile or high status, and it may even seem ordinary, mundane or useless. But knowing that God gives us all the things, He is Most Merciful, Most Compassionate, and bestows His infinite Blessing on us round the clock , therefore being His creature ,we can rest assured that our working lives or the things we do each day, each moment can bring glory to God. We should keep our faith only and only in HIM.
In the end I must share you two most beautiful quotes of great Khalil Jibran which will summarize of whatever I have written above, Jibran says;
"Faith is an oasis in the heart which will never be reached by the caravan of thinking."
"Faith is knowledge within the heart, beyond the reach of proof."
